friendship

'realised this today...theres one person who i have seen in a very different light for a while...but today i realised why it was that i love her. seriously.. please... you know who you are.. lets stay close..cuz i love you..really do.im sorry for ever miss-judging you. the talk we had today, made me feel amazing..and i ment what i said, anything is possible, the world is what we make it. remember that :)<3'

the above quote was written by possibly.. the most lovliest girl in the world. imagining my life without her .. well i don't actually want to think of it. do you no something... i have never met someone so caring and guienly greatful for so much in my life. and to be honest, shes my idol. if everyone had the same look on life as she does, people wouldn't be such ungrateful twats. its taken her .. to make me realise how much i have. and i no i take things for granted, i no i do, but it's people like her who make me stop and think.
her bodys filled with individuality and determination.. as well as making people feel special and warm.
our friendship is genuinly something special. just a connection that wont break :'d

'd'ya want to go the seaside'
when you make it. i want you too remember today. because,, it really ment something to me. sitting in a park, watching the world go by... talking about things so genuine. and i want you too remember me. because... even though i no i can be a horrid person, and i no sometimes i can be like.. smiles + laughter im still me. people may think 'cliche' same old stupid friendship best friend blablabla. but .. i consider you a sister. auntie sami. daughter.
you just need to no how special you are.
your beautiful, your funny, and in one word i have the perfect sum-up for you incredible.
after everything.

'when the sun shines we will shine together, told you i'll be here forever.'

language

sorry i haven't posted recently but i've been busy.

i suppose i have to create a long post to make up for it ? :'DD

'when the sun shines we'll shine together'

emma and me had a conversation this morning about languages, planets, and how our body works.
languages confuse me. theres no doubt about it. so many words meaning the same thing. i would love to learn every language, just so i knew wherever i went.. i would no what people are saying. nosey ? yeh.,, i am.
bodys are such fascinating things. so much can go wrong with them... and that's really scary :/ as you can tell .. mine and emma got into quite a deep conversation, but it's so nice to actually have a friend that understands your view,, doesn't just blow you off.

right now. life is amazing.

not perfect... but if you always wanted everything perfect you would never be happy.

i'm single. i'm always with my friends. it's summer. and new, exciting things are coming my way.

one thing that is negative is one friend off mine. it's hard to get a straight answer from some people.i would rather be dissapointed and improve on how i feel... then be left hanging.
hmm but oh well.

everything happens for a reason../

well eventually. im turning into a new me :DD
and things will always get you down right? but then things can only get better.

-tamii'marie-

listening

sometimes people need to listen to one another.
and other peoples opinions. just because you think a certain thing.. doesn't mean everyone does.
people need to give others the chance to express how they feel... not just have a final decision of the matter without listening.
sometimes its offensive and makes a person feel like they shouldn't be intitled to their own opinion.. which isn't fair.
you shouldn't follow the footsteps of other people.. you need to be your own person in life. stick up for yourself and dont let others make decisions for you.

remember, when you were my boat and i was your sea. together we floated so delicately.

you can probably tell these photos are in reverse order.
hence me looking out of my face in the photo bellow. :'DD

I actually love my friends.
and can honestly say these last couple of days without them would of been hell.



today in the evening we had chineseeee ;) and then drank.. and then went up too ryanssss :) it was a funny night.. which included us giving his twelve year old brother drink; resulted in him throwing up :L upsssss :'DDDD

i love you :)
my best friends

emma, april, me :)

unfortunately we didnt have much drink : haaa.

' dreams are emails for ghosts'

times of life

well.
recently things haven't gone good for me. but the only way is up as people say.
i love how even though i try to be happy nobody is giving me support. :


i'm now single after a 2 and a half year amazing relationship. : its going to be hard, but at least we both no it was for the best.

sometimes when you need support most... people just aren't there. people that you thought would of been anyway.

<3

food.

the best roast dinner ever.
i just ate.. i even had to take a photo.

photographs

editS.

fair enough people change. but for what reasons ? like for example.. your really good friends with someone yet when they aren't alone they act completely different ?
do they get kicks from being a knob or what?
it fustrates me because you no they can't be honest friends. why would you be ashamed to speak to someone if you truely cared for them ?
the key to change is to let go off fear..... because you may result in loosing a friend.


' nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending'


some people need to learn to not be ashamed of who they are, follow your own path to life and not somebody elses. be your own person; not who somebody else wants you too be.
sometimes it's the smallest decission that can change your life forever.

coffee

i don't believe in writting about anything i'm not sure about; or haven't researched personally. i like to transport the reader to places, and in order to do that i have to do the research.
even though my blogs are things about what i personally believe.. or have a view on, doesn't mean people have to accept my way off thinking. but i as a person, have the power of writing something... and making people think; sometimes even with the ability to change someones mind of a subject.

sunshine

friday night i went to a all you can eat chinese with april + 8 other people :'DD this followed in a drinking session of rattler ;) yumm. even though i had to be up at 8 the following morning for work so maybe that wasn't such a good idea.
after work i came home to my beautiful little niece. then me and amelia went to asda and cooked for tea :)
finally we are beginning to see a little sunshine ! wooo :' DD
today has been amazing; but i forgot to take my camera out :
me and ryan went on a road trip. we went to portloe, portscatho,st.mawes,king harry ferry, and then went to watergate bay ( boardmasters) with my sister :'DD
we stopped off at asda for some sandwhiches and ate them on the way :)

change

it's so strange how you can change your emotion in a matter of minutes.
i find it so unfair how people have one rule for one person and completely different for another.
i mean wtf.

i love how i'm feeling so good :

people change.. and i no i do too. but it's fustrating when however hard you try.... you never seem to get anywhere.

sometimes i just want to scream in your face; and tell you how i feel. but you won't listen ... it's as if everybody has put up a boundary.. built a brick wall; with no possibility of entering.

it's a day of wanting to curl up in a ball... and cry. everybody gets these days. and todays mine : bleuh.
i feel like a big cuddle, from the people i love. any offers? <3



-tamii'marie-

carnival

maybe the lushes day i have had in a while :'DD
last night i stayed at samanthaa'j's house :) was a lovely night.. didnt do much but it was comfy and i loved it :)
and about 12ish i went home and at two emma came over. we started by making cup tea + coffeee and then took lots of photos.. which you will see ;) and had a lovely time. :)
emma left at about 5ish and kerry came over. we went down to the carnival and seen loads of people.. i've had such a ace day :'DD been busy but loved it.

happiness

last night after consuming a big bag of tyrells crips, and a huge amount of milkystars, me + samanthaaa'j got in our pyjamass and watched a film with my mumaa :' DDD 'baby mama' or something it was called. pretty funny mind you :'DD
' is that man dead ... is he dead?'
' i feel like im shitting a knife'
its good because to put it bluntly.. we were both bitches to one another... some jealous people just cant stick for two people to be close.
but our friendship will always be amazing no matter what in my eyes. because however hurtful we were to one another, we spoke the truth and cleared the air.. which is honestly the best thing too do.. as they say the only way is up .

...and now things are amazing again. :'XDDD even though we kind of fighted each other of my bed at like ... stupid o'clock in the morning ;)